Just Flooding My Blog

i don't allow too many people to know me. i think i don't need that much attention anyway. i think only few opinions matter. it's a known fact that i don't read my students' evaluation, because they are just full of crap and students don't really know what's best for them. and as we all know, the "i told you so" comes really really later in life. it's also my automatic response to evade someone who's really too pushy. because like what the first sentence says, "i don't ALLOW", meaning somehow i want control. so in a very rare situation where i let my guard down, it means you matter. so i really don't understand why a person passes up a chance to affect someone's life. maybe it's bad timing the first time. maybe it's bad mood the next. maybe it's bad idea the next after next. but of course, i can take a hint. just don't expect that when the time comes that you decide to finally allow yourself to matter, i'll still allow you to experience me. you better be ready to answer "why only now?", because 'second chance' is not a right; it's a privilege.