First Move

I must say I have learned from the past that making the first move is not the best move. In fact, it is not the right move in many instances. It results to a lot of sordid consequences in the end. Better keep your mouth shut. And limit your non-verbal advances to a minimum.

I personally don't mind making the first move. I mean, if the feeling is so overwhelming... dili na jud matabang, why not? But as a matter of policy, I only do it if (a) the guy is dying or going away for a long time or for good, (b) the consequences will only humiliate me for a very brief period, or (c) I really really really like the guy. If any of those enumerated concurs with the fact that I am totally comfortable with the guy, then the first move happens. When I say "comfortable" I mean that the guy is a close friend or a known "crush ng bayan."

Rationale: Kase di ba pag crush ng bayan, ordinary na lang sa kanya na sabihan sya ng mga stuff na ganun. Hindi na sya naaapektuhan. Unlike yung mga typical gwaping lang sa tabi-tabi, nafa-flatter pa sa mga ganung pangyayari, tapos pinapatulan kaagad, thinking there are no more fishers left in the ocean to fish them. Tapos pag close friend naman, the friendship overpowers whatever "ilangan" the first move may create. And ideally, hindi rin dapat naaapektuhan ang close friend.

So, why am I blogging this? Wala lang. For awareness or information campaign... hahaha. Because I see a lot of people these days, guys and girls alike, who do not know the "art of first move." The conservative thinks it's a degradation of moral values. The liberated makes it a habit. In my honest opinion, it is the most crucial step towards fulfilling happiness. Whether you're contented just to have expressed your feelings or it is indeed your first step in a possible romantic quest, let your basis be the circumstances that surround the conduct. Don't be too hasty. For the receiving end, don't be impatient. It takes time and timing. It takes courage and humility. For girls, it takes undeniable attraction and a pachydermatous face to finally come up to a guy and level the playing field.

Cutting Through My Gut

This is the part where I tell myself to focus, to pretend I have not read or heard or seen anything, to be patient, and to introspectively convince myself that I am fine.

The world is round. The one holding the scales is blind. Prayers are answered in different ways. Restrain the inner evil genius, Elaine, because karma is too quick to retaliate. And I know everything comes back a hundred-fold. Now tell me, where will I be more scared of?

Maybe it's also my fault that people are being who they are. That is because I let them be. But the bottomline is I hate their guts. I hate the way they feel they are important, invincible, high and mighty. And maybe they are, but isn't it too much to be letting people know they are of the superior kind? So utterly insensitive, don't you think?

Superiority is subjective. It is relative. It is time dependent. Standards are changed every so often. Everyone has a downfall, an Achilles' heel. So the most logical conclusion I can derive from other people's actions is either The Almighty One is a partial Being or people are just brilliant liars.

Exaggerating, fibbing, deceiving... it's an art. Some people are just so god-damn good at it.

But I will not trade my wrinkles for another person's bliss. And so my ranting ends here, in this blog. Zip it.

Words of Wisdom

In my circle of guy friends, I am the oldest. But sometimes I feel they are more mature. I get unsolicited pieces of advice from them everytime I get stupid about something or someone. Ahihihi. Here are some of their "words to live by"...

VINCENT: At the onset, everybody should enjoy the presumption of bad faith. You don't meet a person and expect that he/she will be nice to you. Unahan mo na ng bad faith, para at least when when they turn out to be good, eh di ok. If not, you won't feel bad because you know from the start that they are bad.

FRED: You tell yourself, "That's it. Wala na." After that, you move on. You don't go back to the same feeling; otherwise, that moment when you said "that's it" becomes moot and academic.

KIM: You should not like someone because he's the complete opposite of that person who broke your heart. Loving by comparison is unfair and cheap. That's why you have standards. You should not compromise it.

NATHAN: It's not about being paranoid. I just don't like it when I feel something is not right, something is already different, something is not what it used to be and not having to do something about it. Ang mga bagay hindi dapat pinapabayaan hanggang sa mawala na lang.

Pretty cool guys, huh?! Ü